# Resolving to Learn from Failure

Source: https://www.theminimalists.com/failure/
Published: 2012-01-01
Updated: 2024-06-12
Author: Joshua Fields Millburn

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I failed last year. A lot. I failed more times than I can count. No matter how often I fail, failure is always sharp and cutting—it never feels good.

I made [my first-ever New Year’s resolution](https://www.theminimalists.com/newyear/) at the beginning of 2011: I resolved to not purchase anything for an entire year. A lofty resolution.

Two months after making my resolution, my thought process regarding buying stuff had changed significantly. At first, when I wanted to purchase an item, I would think, *Hey, look—that thing looks cool. I think I’ll buy it.*

But, eventually, I was forced to face the fact I couldn’t buy those things. And, by the end of the fourth month, something beautiful had happened: I no longer wanted to buy new things. My entire thought process regarding impulse consumption had changed.

I had accidentally reprogrammed myself.

My resolution was to prove I didn’t need to buy stuff for a year. But I learned I could actually change *myself* in the process. After four months, I no longer wanted to buy material items on impulse. The persistent desire to consume was gone. It was—and is—a phenomenal feeling.

And then, six months into the experiment, something unfortunate happened: I spilled tea all over my computer. It wouldn’t power on. It was ruined. Thankfully, my first thought was not, *I guess I’ll go buy another computer.*Instead, my first thought was, *How can I live without this item?*

I went the next several weeks without a computer. I wrote essays longhand on yellow legal pads. I wrote fiction by hand, and it looked like the musings of a madman. I accessed the Internet at libraries, at friends’ houses—anywhere except my tea-soaked MacBook.

After a few weeks, Ryan offered to give me a new laptop for [my 30th birthday](https://www.theminimalists.com/30/)—an offer I turned down because I felt it was cheating. So I soldiered on, computerless for several more weeks.

Eventually I realized I was less productive without my computer. I was writing less, I wasn’t enjoying writing as much, and I didn’t feel as good about what I was writing. I realized I was depriving myself of an essential tool. For me, minimalism has never been about deprivation; rather, minimalism is about getting rid of life’s excess in favor of the essential. For me, a computer was essential, so I got [a new one](https://www.theminimalists.com/workspace/).

And, throughout the rest of the year, I purchased a few other tools I needed as well. But I never returned to the impulse-driven consumption of my past. I was reprogrammed. And I will be forever changed by the experience of not buying stuff impulsively this year. I strongly recommend not buying anything for the next four months—see what it does for your impulses.

At the end of the day, my experiment was, by definition, a failure. But it was a beautiful failure that provided invaluable feedback and insight that I’m thankful for.

This year’s resolution? Well, [I don’t have any goals](https://zenhabits.net/100-days/), but I plan to continue to learn from my failures.

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